Saturday, March 28, 2009

I will choose to trust

"Delay never thwarts God's purposes, it only polishes His instruments"

This journey can be so hard at times...well MOST of the time.  But I can honestly look back on the last 2 years and although I wouldn't want to do them over again, I am thankful for them.  I know that God is doing a great work in my life.  I know that I am being refined("polished") and I know that this is good!  It is so painful to be "broken", but I believe God has to bring us to a point sometimes where there is nothing else that we can control.....nothing else to hold onto except Him, so that he can refine us...polish us.  I am human and everyday, hour, sometimes minute is different, but I choose to trust God for His plan for my life.  He can see the big picture and He has a perfect plan and it is good!  I know that tomorrow I might be like "but God I really think it would be good if I got pregnant this cycle."  I might try to give God some advice(LOL)...but after every failed cycle, every tearful day, etc...I will come back to the truth that God has plans to prosper me and not harm me....plans to give me hope and a future.  God has a plan so much bigger than I could ever imagine and I am thankful for that!

5 comments:

Alex and Jill said...

I agree with every word. :)

You're always in my prayers.

((HUGS))

Barren Womb said...

I am thankful for most things over the last 7+ years but not the infertility. It gets old.
Hugs To You!

Stephanie RN BSN (to be!) said...

You have amazing insight!

Great post.

Michelle said...

What awesome words, Lindsey! God is doing a mighty work in you and you will one day look back on this chapter of your life and see it as one of the richest times of your spiritual journey. You will be a stronger person because of it and it will help you be a better person (and mommy) in ways you wouldn't expect. Keep persevering, and remember choosing to trust is sometimes a choice we must make day by day, sometimes hour by hour or even moment by moment, but you are being obedient to Him each time you choose to trust His greater plan and I truly believe He will honor that obedience.

Shannon said...

I love this post and oftentimes the only comfort I have is thinking about the joy I will feel when God's plan is finally revealed to me- what a wonderful day!

Im praying for you!