"Delay never thwarts God's purposes, it only polishes His instruments"
This journey can be so hard at times...well MOST of the time. But I can honestly look back on the last 2 years and although I wouldn't want to do them over again, I am thankful for them. I know that God is doing a great work in my life. I know that I am being refined("polished") and I know that this is good! It is so painful to be "broken", but I believe God has to bring us to a point sometimes where there is nothing else that we can control.....nothing else to hold onto except Him, so that he can refine us...polish us. I am human and everyday, hour, sometimes minute is different, but I choose to trust God for His plan for my life. He can see the big picture and He has a perfect plan and it is good! I know that tomorrow I might be like "but God I really think it would be good if I got pregnant this cycle." I might try to give God some advice(LOL)...but after every failed cycle, every tearful day, etc...I will come back to the truth that God has plans to prosper me and not harm me....plans to give me hope and a future. God has a plan so much bigger than I could ever imagine and I am thankful for that!