..He is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine... Ephesians 3:20
Sunday, July 5, 2009
I am scared
I am having a rough time today. I was doing so well and feeling so positive and then last night I was jumping from blog to blog reading about different IVF stories and I just got so scared about this not working. I started reading about 3day transfers vs 5day transfers and wondering what ours will be and if our embryos will thrive for those 3-5 days or will they not make it?!? Will this work and I will get to be a mommy or will it not and we will have to wait another year to try again??...I am so scared and I know fear is not from God, so I just keep praying for peace but i just can't shake it. I want to relax and stay positive. Anyone have any advice or special verses that helped you get through this time or if you haven't gone through this just any special verses that you think might help. I need something that I can cling to, because I can tell this is going to be a long month...I just want to stay positive and trust God for His plans. Please pray for this for me! Thanks!
Rob and I have been married for 5 years! He is the best husband ever and I am so thankful for him! In April of 2007 we started TTC. We went through 3 cycles of oral meds, 3 cycles of injectable meds w/IUI, 2 surgeries and 1 failed IVF(we have 3 babies in heaven). It sure was a rollercoaster ride and some days were really hard but our marriage only got stronger and we grew closer to God throughout all of it. In November of 2009 God gave us a heart for adoption and we pursued domestic open adoption! On April 27th, all of our stuff went up online and we were officially waiting!
August 2010 we felt led to pursue IVF #2! After another surgery and a bumpy round of IVF, we were expecting twins in August 2011!!! Praise God from whom all blessings flow!!! Our sweet baby girls were born June 22, 2011 at 34 weeks due to preeclampsia. Natalie spent 5 weeks in the NICU for feeding problems and Sydney spent 6 weeks in the NICU with severe reflux and feeding problems. I feel like God used that experience to make me a better NICU nurse. I now have the perspective of a NICU parent! We are so thankful for these wonderful blessing God has given us! They were definitely "worth the wait"!