Wednesday, November 11, 2009

God has changed our hearts....

And we couldn't be more excited!!!

We have been preparing for our IVF for January for the last few months and it was starting to get closer and closer. People were asking me about it and I was noticing that I was feeling sort of indifferent about it. I was like, "God why do I feel this way? I feel like I should be getting excited." But I just kept having this feeling of nothing really. Not excitement. Not anything. I kept thinking well maybe I am just scared....scared of more disappointment. So I just went on and thought I will get more excited as it gets a little closer.

Then all of this stuff started happening. I didn't realize this "stuff" was happening until I look back now. One day I came across this blog, My Heart's Cry. I started reading it and it was an amazing couples journey through infertility and their eventual road to adoption(I read the whole thing...3.5 hours worth;)). I didn't know it then but that is one of the first things God used to show me where He was going to be taking us soon.

Our good friends just adopted a little girl and they were over a couple weeks ago. My friend, Betsy, said to me, "if you guys ever decide you want to adopt, you should use the agency we used to do our homestudy. We really liked them and they are one of the most affordable in Indy." That night when they left I got on the website and I was thinking, "why am I on here? We are getting ready to do IVF. Oh well I think I'll just order an info packet, just for fun." That was on a Saturday night. On Tuesday I found myself excitedly anticipating that packet. I was so confused by my feelings. Little did I know that God was changing my heart at that very moment. On Tuesday the packet came and I read every last thing in that packet and when I was done, I knew God was revealing a new plan to us! We were supposed to pursue adoption instead of this upcoming IVF. I knew that Rob wasn't really on this same page yet, so I started praying that God would change Rob's heart if this was His plan for us. After lots of talking and praying, Rob told me last night that he was ready to pursue adoption! Wow things can change so much, so fast, but we are so excited!! We can't get into the first info meeting until January 9th, because the December one is full, so we still have some waiting to do before we can really start anything. But we will be moving forward with Domestic Adoption as soon as we can get started! We can't wait! We would love it if you would start praying with us for the Birthmom and our baby and God's plan for all of us!

17 comments:

andrew,betsy,& noura said...

i cried when we talked and I cried when I read this. I sensed such joy in your voice when we talked last night and were rejoicing with you guys! Love you guys so much!!!

Kristina said...

praying peace over all of you! And an easy road!! Working at an adoption agency is tough to see people "get their babies" and I am trying so hard for my own...but what a blessing it is, too!!! I pray that the next few months go quickly and smoothly and that you lean on God when you need Him most!

Dave and Elaine said...

So exciting!!!!! Adoption is such a miracle!

Mary Beth said...

Lindsey, that is so exciting! Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers for a smooth process!

Alex and Jill said...

So excited for you guys! Keeping you in my prayers.

twondra said...

Oh my gosh! I'm so happy for you!!! I will definitely be praying for you guys! Very exciting!!

Michelle said...

Wow! This is so wonderful! I will be praying for everyone and everything involved! Ever since I saw your previous post about Andrew & Betsy's little girl, I kept thinking about what a wonderful post that was and now I just feel so excited for you guys and hopeful for the future.

**HoLLy** said...

i am really excited for you lindsey...i will pray all things work out for you !!! good luck!

Anonymous said...

Lindsey,
I'm excited for you to have peace about where God is leading you and to know you are following Him and have been through this entire infertility process. It has been neat to watch this all unfold! Hopefully the adoption process will be smooth sailing for you!
Lisa DeaKyne

The Patterson's said...

Oh my gosh, this is so exciting!!! I will be praying for you! Can't wait to follow you on this journey!

Shannon said...

I got the chills when I read your post! I am so thrilled that God has spoken to you in this way and he is leading you to adoption. What a wonderful gift and amazing blessing. I am so excited to continue to follow your journey to becoming a mother!

Janelle Spencer said...

HI...I have never met you but I happened upon your blog today...it is so weird...we just had our first IUI...it was unsuccessful and I am so disappointed....my husband wants to try it again, but I don't know if I can emotionally...I feel done. I have been praying that God will tell me what to do...do we adopt, try it again..I just don't know and then today...I stumbled upon your blog...I have been asking for a sign...is this my sign...I think it might be...my question for you is...we live in Indy too, what agency are you thinking of using? Just curious. our neighbors just adopted from Kidsfirst..

Thanks
My name is Janelle Spencer
my email is basket_girl24@yahoo.com

Thank you for writing that...you have given my some peace today

carol said...

What an awesome reminder of how God works! We are excited with you and for you....Love the Collins

Anonymous said...

This is so exciting Lindsey and Rob!! My prayer will shift slightly as I continue to pray for God's will in your journey to parenthood. I will add an unknown birth mom to my thoughts and words. Love you guys. If I was a birthmom, I'd pick YOU!!
Judy

Carly said...

I came across your blog today, and it's great to see someone in the same place as me.
My husband and I had 2 failed IUIs this summer, and we are now pursuing adoption. I can't even tell you how much more excited I am about it than I was about the IUIs.
I hope that the adoption journey is short and smooth for you and your husband!

Proudler Family said...

Hi - I just wanted to say I've been following your blog and I am encouraged by this. My husband and I were planning on starting IVF in January too and for some reason do not have a peace about it. We can't pinpoint why we don't have a peace but we want to trust God and His tremendous plan. I just wanted to say, may He pour out His blessing on you as His word does not return back to Him null and void but accomplishes everything that it sets out to! Thank you for sharing your struggle, it is a tremendous encouragment to have other women giving God the glory for the great things that only He can do!

The Lane Family said...

I am SOOO excited for you. I learned along time ago that everything happens for a reason and the Lord knows what is best for us. Many of our friends we met along this challenge called infertility went onto adopt and have had amazing experiences. We will keep our prayers with you!!